People Are Driving Me Crazy!
Posted on 25. May, 2010 by Ken Bechtel in The Goo Blog
It feels like I have no patients anymore. I seem to be frustrated and angry at everyone. Seriously! It seems like everyone I meet, no not really the folks I meet and speak with, more the people I encounter driving, riding my bike, walking down the sidewalk, in the aisle at the store. Yeah, those non-descript knuckleheads are the people that are driving me nuts.
It is like nothing they do is right. They are moving too slow or blocking my way or making dumb decisions. How inconsiderate can these people be? I feel like I am in a world filled with idiots.
Then I am doing stupid things too. I am being an asshole, even when I know that the thing I am about to do would be rude or stupid, I do it anyhow. Like I am saying “screw you†with my actions as a way of getting back at these morons.
I feel frustrated. I don’t like this.
It reminds me of when I first started becoming aware of my energy and working with it for the first time over 14 years ago.
I had been in studying spiritual energy for about 3 or 4 weeks and when I arrived for my next class my teacher asked how I was doing. Without thinking I said “Life sucks. I don’t want to be around anyone. Everyone annoys me from my roommates to the check out person at the grocery store to you.â€Â Then I was very clear and said, “If living in isolation is what being enlightened is all about, then I am out. I love people too much for that.â€
She laughed and said that what I was experiencing was what happens for everyone when they start to set their boundaries and become conscious of taking back their power.
As I was doing these things, it caused both myself and everyone I encounter to re-evaluate how they interact with me. Some liked the new me better than before, others liked me less and of course some didn’t change in their interaction with me one way or another.
Of course the feelings I had 14 years ago all settled out and am certain that will happen again. I guess what I am experiencing now is another layer of growth I am moving through.
As I shift and become more me, some folks like it, some don’t and others could care less. And I also am re-evaluating how I interact with others including the random person I get behind in traffic.
Becoming more me requires me to love myself more. The more love I have for myself, the more love I have to share with others. One element of love is compassion. So as I am being more compassionate for myself, I am being asked to find compassion for others as well.
I am so grateful that I have my coaches, mentors and friends that are here to support me as I go through these challenging transformations. Â Doing this alone would be brutal.
Yeah! People are not idiots, they are people just like me.
